Messianic Girls Take care

“I’m a Messianic Girl and I fall in hands of a Gentile (goyim) Boy;

It started with looks, continued with conversations and ended with violence and being put to shame

We spent many hours together and at night ended at his house

At work place, a particular non believer boy kept staring at me, with time I started getting excited, so I looked back. True I knew he was a non-believer, Gentile (goyim) but it didn’t matter to me. I enjoyed the attention he showered on me and I returned it in kind.

We started talking at work during work breaks. We shared our contacts and progressed to telephone conversations after work hours. We had long and short conversations for months. The bonds between us were strengthening. Then he invited me to go out with him. I immediately agreed, and I went without hesitation…. I enjoyed our conversations so much that I had no second thoughts. We went out together and he kept telling me how great he feels that he got to know me. He would shower me with compliments telling me that he’s excited to go out with me. We spent many hours together and at night ended at his house where I was explored and celebrated exclusively.

What was I thinking that day? I don’t know and I can’t explain it to myself…

A month later I discovered I was pregnant. I came to work and told him and things derailed. I still remember his first slap in my face. He shouted at me and shamed me. He demanded I have an abortion but I refused. That made him boil with rage; he would shout at me and berate me at work in front of all the workers and customers. I took it only for so long until I couldn’t take it anymore. I handed in my resignation and left my job and filed a complaint against him.

Without hesitating I’ve kept the baby. He is my child and was born at 9 months and stayed with me. This Gentile (goyim) who is his father stayed at work and I lose my work. I’m alone with my child in the cold.

Today what gives me strength is the hope that maybe other young Messianic women who hear my story will stay away and not fall into the trap that I fell into; the trap of lies and broken promises of these young men, these Gentile (goyim)! It’s not worth it!!

I lose my work. I’m alone with my child in the cold